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Manda.. I know I have been a Douche and a half over recent matters, and i also know u are to nice to admit it. which is why just asking this feels out of order but might as well give it a shot...

Because of stuff with my ex i thought it best to like just do nothing and then everything would be okai, because it wasnt fair on you when that was going on, but i cant help but think there was no need for that. we are really great together and never have a argument not even over most upsetting things. and thats a huge thing. most people would have spilled blood over it >,< lol
I think you are beautiful and a physical attraction is usually the reason for people to get together and its a excilent one. but when u factor in how well our personalitys fit together that just makes it soo much more amazing. we both have our own little spazz's over things that most people would think are rediculas but we cant help but love them about eachother kus they are just that part of who we are. i dont think ive seen a couple in a long time that get on and act so well as we did and still kinda do. it would be kinda akward kusa my ex n stuff, and i still wana stay best friends with her. but i belive ive sorted my feelings properly and i know 100% what i wantand thats you >//<>//<.

but yeahTomro [27th Sunday] ima be at my house all day just jammin. and if u feel like it u are welcome to join me, just come around at anytime and we can watch a film or something =] but its perfectly okai if u dont lol after all ive put u though id understand if u would rather just leave things as they are but would kick myself so much if i didnt try but yeaha.. ima leave it there kus im starting to ramble alot >,<>,<

Tom x

my reply:
dw you did what you thought was best over what happened. and its not like you were the only one who thought it because i know you were getting advice from rachel and emma. when we broke up i did take it quite badly. i still care alot about you and my feelings for you are still here. if anything they've gotten a bit stronger because it helped me realise just how much i care about you. i duno we just fit. i still cant believe how well we are together. yh ill come over if you want =] awww you're not rambling silly. xxxxx s

o yeah =] as you can tell thts made me happier. tomz im gonna see how he is and make sure this is wot he wants. i cant go through tht, and put you guys through this again. i know how worried everyone is. i saw trout today and she told me. but dont be. i am getting better eating wise and everything just slowly. i find it piss easy to lose weight but so bloody diffiicult to put back on. and people like luke and gerard sending me messages saying im fat arent helping > < but im getting there.

he really does make me happy. as long as its what he wants. x