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grrr today took a turn for the worst

i feel even worse now icant believe i cried twice at skool ! i actually have never cried in skool while ive been in high school and im in my last year! it just felt reli weird cos i had pretty much nearly everyone hu saw me come up to me and start talking to me nd asking me wots wrong

its just reli annoying cos i want to tell them wots wrong so i can talk to them about it but i cant the onli people hu know wots wrong are 3 possibly 4 people and theyre not around all the time

it just reli sucks

i just hate myselfat the moment cos i feelthat it is partly my fault =[

i just want to cry

i wish

I Wish...

1. ...That I didn't cry every time you were hurting.
2. ...That others saw you in the way that I do. Because you're beautiful.
3. ...That loving you was easy.
4. ...That I could fix your broken heart and your messed up life.
5. ...That you knew how much it hurts me when you say you hate yourself.
6. ...That you knew just how much I love you, and care for you.
7. ...That nothing could ever hurt you ever again.
8. ...That I could wish these for someone else because that would mean that you were okay.
9. ...That it was this easy; that I could just wish your worries away.

But Most Of All...

10. ...I Wish That You Were Happy.

You honestly don't know how big a part of my life you are. I need you.

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you do these things

and say youre ugly

but you dont understand

just how perfect you are

i hate that you feel this way

and i want to put it right

i just dont know how to

Why cant you see this

i tell you youre perfect

just as you are

And how you should never change

but you dont listen

You do these things

and all i want to know is why

cos you never tell me

but i dont mind that you dont

I just mind what you do

cos i dont like it

u have no idea

just how much it upsets me

i just dont know

how much more of this

i can actually take.....