Umm

Im not that happy atm. I just realised earlier that I found Charlie...dead in his hutch a year ago today > <

Im semi crying now while writing this =[ i had a little cry earlier and it just keeps coming lol. I can still see him when i uncovered him that morning just lying there ='[

Its so heartbreaking..i just miss him sooo much a day hasnt really gone by when ive not thought about stuff that he did, if i was upset he would literally just sit there on my lap and listened to me whilst i talked to him, how he made me laugh, how he could cheer me up so easily. He was so much more than a pet to me, he really was. He was my baby and was and stil always be a part of me ='[

Sometimes i swear i can almost feel his fur on me again =[

Im trying so hard not to cry. Ive kinda given myself a headache atm from it all. And i bet this isnt helping my hormones either considering ive just started taking the pill > <

But then i guess that could be whats influencing me crying even more. I duno

I just know that i miss him and he was the best pet i ever had. Im still heart broken over it all and i just hate it. No pet will ever replace him. Never. He was my baby ='[

Ergh i really need to stop this crying, its making my headache worse =[

Pill

Last wednesday me and vickie went to the doctors together as we both wanted to go on the pill so we thought it would be nice to go on together. And im glad we did so its more than just moral support for the other.

And i started taking the pill thursday night had a bit of a spaz though cos i wanted to take it about 6pm so then i dont have to worry about being in uni, or if i oversleep in the morning, or if im out at night or w/e. But i came on like really early in the morning lol so had to wait over 12 hours to take it. Annoyed me lol. But i already i hate it lol and ive only taken 3.

I have such problems when it comes to taking tablets. But meh ill deal with it. Means im more safe.

Ergh i swear, guys dont know what we have to put up with and deal with as girls. Guys are the easier sex guarenteed. What do they have to go through thats embaressing or annoying? its literally their voice breaking and thats it. we bleed every month for about a week until were abut what 50/60? and we have to deal with the pain of it before and after. we have to give birth. its like erghhh.

i love being a girl dont get me wrong. but i just wish that guys knew what it was to live a day in our shoes.