ive never felt more alone in my life
i just hate life at the moment
youre so hard to hold but i cant let go
i found a new way to release my anger
ive onli told 2/3 people tht i do it they think its a form of self-harm
i think otherwise
cos its not like im bleeding or anything
it just helps me to release my anger/depression
id rather do tht than feel like this...
great now im crying
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Amanda.
Tell me, please tell me.
Even if it's not self injury, it's self harm, and I know of all people that it doesn't work me just saying "Don't do it.", but please, please tell me so that I can help.
I'm sorry, I'm so pathetic.
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x.Rachel.x
If you ever can't sleep and want to talk to someone, whatever the time, you can always ring me, okay?
"i know i dont have a reason to like u do with david, but i still do and i dont know why."
Everyone has things to be depressed about, no matter how small, so don't feel like your sadness isn't as important as mine or anything, cause it is.
To me, if not anyone else.
x.Rachel.x
Sorry for all this.
It's just the past month I had started liking myself a bit more, because of holding back on the cutting and I started to think that maybe it was possible, but now I've been cutting more than normal and I just hate how I always seem to ruin it.
Yesterday I was packing for holiday, and I actually packed some knives.
That's how little faith I have in myself.
And that's when I changed my name.
(Sugarcult song, has to be done).
But not cutting until my birthday is a good goal. And Amanda said about aiming to wear short sleeve shirts at some point in the summer, so maybe on my birthday we can go to the park, and I can wear a short sleeve shirt, and it won't matter, because the scars are fading and I won't have cut and...
I'm sorry that I'm such a high maintenace friend.
Love you, whatcha been up to?
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