crap

i thought i was doin so well but now i just feel like shit

i hate life and myself atm

i wish i could decide on my feelings. i think i like someone but i dont knw nd i keep being pressured

also some things in my life have become a difficulty to bare. some people think tht just because theres a smile on my face they think im happy. dont they know tht looks canbe deceiving. i wish i could just crawl under my bedcovers and just forget everything. but i cant. how do u tell someone so close to u tht theyre being reli stubborn i know tht seems reli easy to say but it isnt.

i just feel so alone =[